

The Last Leaf to Fall:: Sometimes I Feel the Description of the Poem Should Come First :: ....so it's going to. and the poem? it's going to be the comments instead.The Last Leaf to Fall
Yes, I'm going there. I haven't touched it in three years, but I've suffered it every day since. Krystle? You may not want to read this. This is a poem I wrote, one of my first. Three years ago, I was admitted to a trauma disorders hospital for those with severe childhood trauma, sexual abuse, PTSD, and other dissociative disorders. I'd never been in treatment for this. I was terrified to walk onto a unit where I'd have to face my
| As a survivor of child abuse and trauma (as well as adult abuse as well), photographs of children have a very unique place in my heart. Even the most joyous face on a child can actually evoke SO much sadness in me. Images of sadness, abandonment and pain can actually rekindle a sense of validation and connection with me. While, also each image can evoke a different experience inside of me simply dependent on the day I happen to view it. I never plan to have children and actually don't do well with kids (mostly because of what I've already explained; it's always uncertain and unpredictable how I may feel around them, let alone interact). The images of them here on dA seem to hold a nostalgic, sweet soft-spot in most people's hearts around here. For me, that's not the case, really. But, the essence of a child and capturing that in some way artistically Speaks to me. It's healing, while at times painful. It's beauty and joy and sometimes silly. But, most of all, it's something I want to Experience (vicariously through these images). Whether it's joy and carefree bliss in innocence I never got to have myself, or even tending to old wounds by looking at the pain in another child's eyes; I need to experience it now. Thank you to all artists who make this possible for me. |
WE NEED YOUR HELP ![]() As many of my watchers know, I recently held a contest for my dearest friend, Beth Anderson who was in the hospital at the time. If you don't know her story, this is the link to a previous news article on her: [link] She, like myself and many others, is a childhood physical and sexual abuse survivor. She's now been out of the hospital awhile, but she lives in L.A., and the treatment she still needs is HERE. She's come to live with me (June 17), expense free for about a year. That includes meals, house, extraneous expenses, on us. THE HUGE DILEMMA? Her medical bills alone, I repeat JUST medical bills are going to be a minimum of $1000 a week. Here on the east coast, (mainly in our very small, and somewhat backwards, town in Pennsylvania), many salary-paying jobs don't even earn that much! Unless you've lived here manyyy years and have a well-established career, this is impossible. We have some jobs in place for her and are contributing all WE can, but that won't even TOUCH the medical necessity portion. Working full-time alone while being fully invested in treatment is all but impossible, but it's the only way to do it. As the time draws nearer, we're seeing that even at her current state, she's definitely unable to work full-time and we're really holding out on donations, benefit concerts, and the pay she can earn in the jobs she can work. So, I humbly come to you. You've helped me endlessly in times of emotional support and encouragement. This community is AMAZING in what we do for one another. And the contest? Was a HUGE success and made her wellness soar!!! However, this time, it's sadly REAL dollars that we need. Without this treatment, things could be very disastrous as her condition is quite severe. HERE IS THE PLAN: A Donation Bank Account has been established for the medical expense relief of Beth Anderson. The account is held at the Member's First Federal Credit Union in Dillsburg, Pennsylvania. Donations in any amount can be made via check or money order payable to "The Beth Anderson Medical Fund". These funds can then be snail-mailed to: Beth Anderson Medical Fund c/o Kristie McKonly 3266-2 Rosstown Road Wellsville, PA 17365. We have given this bank permission to verify to anyone who calls that this fund does actually exist and they may even provide a little information about it if you have any doubts -- after all, this IS the internet and I wouldn't blame you for being weary. I can give you both the phone number and/or the bank's address upon your request. We also attempted to open a Pay-Pal account for the same purpose. This would allow those residing outside of the United States to contribute without having to pay extra for the U.S. conversion rates. However, due to the fact that it is a specific donation account in the bank, this option was said to be unwise since many things can go wrong. However, I myself, Kristie McKonly have a PayPal account (the email is black_n_whitecolor@yahoo.com) and have already tried this with two people successfully that they donate to me, I immediately withdraw that money and write it out to Beth to install in her donation fund. Upon her receiving the money, she will contact you if you wish so you can be CERTAIN that neither of us kept your money for ourselves -- that she DID receive the money from me and that it was written out only to The Beth Anderson Medical Fund. Our attorney has informed us that it will be costly to apply for Non-Profit status on the account, which would allow donations to be tax-deductible as charitable contributions; thus, we have opted not to do this at this time. Donations can be deducted as "gifts" if you qualify for this deduction. However! If anyone was considering contributing this way and has now decided against doing so because we do not have a Non-Profit status please inform us of this so that we can decide if the benefit outweighs the costs involved. Obviously, we would like every penny to go directly toward defraying medical expenses; however, if there were a large donation hinging on the non-profit application we will seriously consider taking the appropriate steps. If you have ANY questions, doubts, things to double-check on, you can message me anytime. This cause means the WORLD to me! This girl means the world to me, and I swear if anything ever happened to her or I lost her....it wouldn't ever know what to do with myself. Contacting myself or now Beth herself, by email may be the best option considering we are both SWAMPED in dA notes/comments to the point they easily go missed; especially if you have questions: Kristie McKonly: black_n_whitecolor@yahoo.com Beth Anderson: elizanderson@cox.net Beth also just opened a dA account herself and is learning how to navigate the page before uploading some of her own works. Her dA name is ~deviantbynature1940 and you could also give her your support there. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP! Please, please, pleaseeee spread the word! This is SO important! (And also, if you're young or without much money, purchasing her album is a small thing that DOES help her in a small way too!) Post this in your Journals, Church Bulletins, Blogs, Facebooks, Emails, Parents, Businesses even! I'm just a one-man show. I can't come up with $5000 a month for a year. But, we WILL do this! And, its because of YOU all! Also? If you know any other deviant to contact who would be touched by this story, please contact them. Beth IS an artist. A published singer/songwriter. Lyricist. Visual artist. But, most of all? a Survivor. ...no longer just survive. all of my THANK YOU ALL!! She's scared, nervous and very afraid, though she's living here, that the funds just WON'T turn up. Let's unite together and help a struggling girl find at least a little cushion to fall on. Your kindness is plentiful, your hearts are warm. If I were going to ask this of ANY community, it would be THIS one. In closing, for anyone in the Facebook community, there is also a Cause set up for her there, too that you can invite your Facebook friends to join and read about this cause outside of dA. The link is: [link] |
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Whenever you have time, with all my love
Very well composed photographs, hope to see your new works^^
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If you like a photograph on my gallery,
please comment before add favorite^^
I'm deeply touched, your emotions really reach out to the viewers in every single work of yours which I looked at.
I wish I could say that I know what it feels like, but if I did, it would be a lie, as being just 14 and living a very easy life thanks to my wonderful family, I am probably unable to comprehend such complex emotions.
Yet, I would like to say... I'm with you.
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~Official Deidara (and Akatsuki) fangirl~
Worship LunarMaddness-sama or else (else = Be sacrificed to Jashin) !
Don't aim for the sky , when you can conquer the world >:3
P.S. Daria is the Mo-Fo'in WIN!
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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found its words. ~Robert Frost
God be with you.
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[link] Help a person in need for free.
Sometimes it takes near-drowning to get your feet back on the water.
(Sounds like something Peter would say, huh?)
*hugs*
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They say I should not write this way
writing till the break of day
but I care not what they say
for they are why I am this way.
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I read today in a magazine
that men don't like girls who are shy and sad
so now I wear my magic smile, just for you
I put my magic boots, I ride my magic horse
I am so brave, I don't fear anything!
hahahaha.
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"Be yourself-everyone else is taken!"-O.W
Thanks so much for adding Forever Dream to your favorites.
It makes me happy.
Take care
~Josh~
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Name: Joshua Ward
DA Gallery: [link]
~My heart belongs to none. But my love belongs to you..~
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Go to Sora and Koji's gallery!
~Josh~
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Name: Joshua Ward
DA Gallery: [link]
~My heart belongs to none. But my love belongs to you..~
[link]
[link]
Go to Sora and Koji's gallery!
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Sugod mga kapatid
Tayo ay magsama-sama
Iwagayway na ang bandera
Rakenrol hanggang umaga!
-Sugod (Sandwich)
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