this photo was taken just under a year ago. ...though the title is a Tegan and Sara song, its meaning alone rings in my ears. i haven't anything new to upload yet. i only just got home. ..but i'm held now to thoughts and reflection of where i was one year ago... all while still too often trapped in flashback -- believing I am ten years ago.
i am not where i was then. not one year ago. not ten. i'm weaker and stronger. more feeble and frail, but hardened by steel. my backbone has solidified, i'll still break if the wind blows too hard. i'm more resilient. i'm run down. i've grown. i've regressed. i am not where i was. i am not ten years ago.
"I'm up and doing circles. I collapse."
I'm nearly 21. A confident adult. Responsible, mature, wise. But, some days I'm only 3. The next hour I'm a seven-year-old cradled in a corner, perpetual fear that makes me cower. I am 14 and grief-stricken. I am 11, and I am brave. I am CHANCE. I am 17 and suffocating in self-loathing and imperfections. Unwanted. Unlovable. Failure. Then I am 10 and my brothers my best friend. At 8, I get dirty and roughhouse; unafraid. I am 12 with the biggest dreams and undying faith. Nothing is out of reach, and my hopes are never too high. Still, I am Kristie. I am 20. I am not where I was.
"Now I don't know why, but I still try to smile when they talk at me like i'm just a child well, i'm not a child. no, i am much younger than that."
i am not where i was, but maybe i've never been. i'm unborn. an upcoming creation.
i am not ten years ago, nor fifteen or five. i am today.
aw, thank you so dearly -- that means so muc to me coming from you as i am so admiring of yourrr work thank you
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The atmosphere of the photo really suits the words you've written. A beautiful mood you've created here. I'm glad to see some more artwork from you it is always really thoughtful and full of reflection.
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Death does not concern us, because as long as we exist, death is not here...
aw, thank you so so much == that means so much to me
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oddly, even in my photoediting, i didn't adjust the brightness --it was actually lit that way on its own. it spoke its own metaphor "of brightness turned down" just as you said. into a room of empty hearts and shadows. thank you so much
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aw, thank you so so dearly. that means so veryy much to me
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